Alternative endings revisited

So how does it all end ? So far, you've got the traditional ending of the myth, ay least as far as Eurydice is concerned. She's dead and in the underworld. According to the myth, she is reunited with Orpheus when he dies - killed by Thracian women for one reason or another - and his head floating down a river to the sea with his harp...nice story...not how I'd choose to go, but that's myths for you.
I suppose the question is how long does it take to happen, and what is Eurydice doing in the meantime? Does time travel at the same pace for dead people ? The myths don't say - The waters of Lethe are supposed to bring forgetfulness - but it would seem they're not exclusive to dead people. But if memory goes when you die, why would you want to be reunited with former lovers? You wouldn't have a clue who they were, would you ? And they wouldn't know who you were either. But if memory doesn't go, it must be truly awful down there - always remembering what it's like to be alive and not able to do any of it. Maybe that's what hell really is ? Sounds pretty bad to me - mind you, that could just be down to a lack of patience on my part - I always want to know the answer NOW .

Maybe I need to say what I think about afterlife and so on. I kind of picked up some buddhist ideas somewhere back in my (misspent) youth - and part of that was a view about death and reincarnation - and choice. Until you get it right - the why you are here question - you go round and round - each time you come back, you've got a lesson to learn and that's why things happen to you. If you get it right, you get to choose between not coming back ever again and becoming part of the energy that moves the universe, or coming back to do it all again - only you're not allowed to remember how it was supposed to work. That's one idea - hell is a place on earth ( sorry Belinda, you've got it wrong - spot the quote again) and it's wherever you are right now because it's what you need to learn. But then sometimes I wonder if hell is somewhere else - it's the place you end up in where everyone else is happy and you're not - they're all watching Eastenders and Hollyoaks when you want to watch the football and vice versa - and there's no escape from it.
I suppose it depends on how much you think god or gods or whatever punish people for getting it wrong.
The next question is to ask what "wrong" actually is - are things happening because of your choices or are you doing things to other people because it's what they need to learn ? You could justify just about any crap behaviour you want if you go along that - it's not me, it's what you deserve and I am the agent of nemesis....if you hear voices saying that it's definitely time to stop and get help - but how unreasonable is it ?
I guess inside we all know the answer - it's not a "good" thing to hurt people - in any way, certainly not if you know that's what you'll do, but there's still that choice - are you sure that doing the opposite won't end up hurting them even more? In the end, I guess you just do what you can when you can, for the best reasons you can. That's what I try to do - he said - maybe seeking to justify himself for doing things he thinks are wrong - no, maybe knows aren't quite right, but the alternative seems so much worse. Torn in two - decisions made, but it still hurts, still eats away at the nerves - it will do, right up till the end and possibly even after that. Lots of things to talk about, but nothing to say - back to the beginning - and this started off as an ending for the story - maybe I really can't stop talking about myself ? Is there anyone out there ?